DAY 11 – 12 DAYS OF CHRISTOS AWAKENING CELEBRATION

THIS DAY WAS THE HARDEST SINCE DAY 3.

The ATTITUDE woke up emotions, reminding of unhealed wounds in me. The “Glass of Water was Shaked, and the grumps lying in the bottom surfaced”. I will write here some insights in addition to the Meditation of the 11th Day.

I have also added some INSPIRATION from the THE 12 ATTITUDES & RESPONSIBILITIES OF MASTERY book. (scroll down)

11. ATTITUDE – ENGAGED DETACHMENT

I fell into anxiety, pulled my self out of it with the help of the RESPONSIBILITY and PERSONAL JOY & JOY WITH OTHERS.

Then fell back to it again … Pull my self out it … Fluctuating …

With the anxiety and Silence …

With Emotions.

I have used the DAY to Feel them, letting them FLOW through me.

By now I have sharpened my ability to BE in the NOW, so I Breathe…

And I AM surrounded by NO-thing… And I BREATHE. With GOD-SOURCE.

11. RESPONSIBILITY – CO-OPERATION / DIPLOMACY.

STEPS TOWARDS PERSONAL JOY – Shhhhhhh … 🤫

STEPS TOWARDS JOY WITH OTHERS

SOME REFLECTIONS

IT WAS A CHALLENGING DAY…

I remember situations from the “past”(past is lower frequency, future is higher frequency), when I felt to be ignored, or not taken seriously, being engaged with persons, who have undeveloped emotional body and do not have ability to be intimate, which is SO DRY, UNLOVING PLACE to exist with another Soul. Cold. Icy.

The Energy is not flowing between the Two.

I am not received, nor am I offered anything in exchange.

Here I mean the ENERGY EXCHANGE between people who are engaged actively in Connection with each other.

The ENERGY ECHANGE is circulating between them.

I perceive it as a 8 or the infinity symbol.

I have experienced this “coldness” a lot in This Life.

AND I AM TAKING FULL RESPONSIBILITY OF HAVING IT IN MY HOLOGRAM.

It IS All about Me anyways…

Have you heard about different ATTACHMENT STYLES.

This information appeared algorithmically in my Hologram.

https://www.verywellmind.com/attachment-anxiety-4692761

Anxious people, due to TRAUMA (in this life, or another one, they all happens simultaneously anyway…) either hang on to relationships, which are not fulfilling of their own needs, and can increasingly let the relationship pull themselves energetically “down”, sucking Life-energy out of them (been there, done that, and I AM not a Victim)

Detachment and Engaged Detachment are different.

When we are Detached, we have setup a hierarchically positioned structure, where the persons I AM is convinced, they are from Higher Frequency, and will not engage in anything with “low Frequencies”. ”I am nor engaging”, they say.

“I am more spiritual”, they say too … hmhmmm….

OR they become so COLD, and avoid any contact with TheOther, who is triggering emotions in them, which they do not want to feel. Or they do both with different people. What a Dance.

In Detachment people say I AM HERE AND VERY MUCH SO! AND NOW I AM NOT, AND NOWHERE TO BE FOUND!

GONE!

A Secure person, who is In Touch with their INNER CHRISTOS, SAY “I AM looking for TRUE & HONEST, MATURE Relationships, only…”

And for that to Manifest in their Hologram, they have to become those things with themselves first.

To BEcome Healed, which is to BE what they Originally Are.

So, I take a look at my self.

Where do I, Myself, and ME treat myself in that Dry, Cold, Unloving way, when I am not listening to my Needs, when I am not giving myself enough attention, and not hearing everything “MY I” have to say, listening attentively, respecting it, honouring it and ENGAGE in action where I AM nurturing myself.

I do not need to wait SomeOne out there to do it.

Since they will not DO it anyways… Until I Heal the Polarity within me.

Since these Persons and Circumstances are a Clear Mirror Picture of that Inner Conditioning I have, and since am unconscious about it, My Higher Self has called them into Manifestation on my Hologram.

Secure person is increasingly Whole.

BEing fully in INTIMATE closeness with my Core, I NEED NO-THING from anyone else. I AM PRESENT, and through that Silence InTouch with GOD-SOURCE.

ALL IT TRULY WELL!

There IS not lack…

And those dry, cold, uncaring people disappear from my Hologram too. They are not needed. I have healed those Polarities in me, so either they themselves TRANSFORM in relationship with me, or remain, who they are, and in that dying Hologram, from which I have ENGAGED to DETACH.

I AM HEALED.

I AM LOVED.

I can say that now, without needing anyone else to Prove me that.

AND…

I AM ABLE to find those people to whom I can Give that Love Authentically.

And the ENERGY FLOWS… In ALL Levels. Organically, without Effort. Naturally.