I do Yearn for Happiness
Joy
For the Ecstatic Blissful Flow of
Being Alive
Touching the Purpose of My Existence
Here and Now
Uniting with IT
Without Proof
Doubt
Knowing
Here IS Home
Yet…
In those Moments
When I realize
A Failure to Recognize
The Ever-giving Loving
Flow of God-Source
Arriving at my Door
Knocking
Gently
Asking for Permission
To Enter
Where I remained
Behind the closed door
Wondering
Who is Knocking?
Restraining My Self
To Open
And to Look
And See
Insight of this
Arrived afterwards
And I want so, so
Desperately
To turn the Wheel of Time
Backwards
Counterclockwise
My RashaL-Ae Body
Into Right Spin
Flowing with God-Source
So that I can Rush
To Open the Door
And Welcome
The Messenger
From My God-Self
And Welcome Him
With Open Arms
Into My Home
Making it His too
The Pain
Sweet Pain
Arriving
When lying down
Flat on the Ground
Infront of the Insight
My Heart beating
In Unison with The Earth
“I know, My Child”
She Whispers
Holding Me
Without Blame
Without Judgement
Pouring The Ever-giving
Grace
Loving Flow
Of the God-Source
Into my Cells
My nose is bleeding
My eyes shot red
From the Pain
I Now Open Up
and Receive
The Grace
Dry my nose
My Eyes
And Pull My Self Up
Holding my Arms around
My Self
And Wait for the Knock
No,
Better yet
I leave the Door
Open…
To MyOneAndOnlyAdonA
padmaalba
Breathe The Breath Of Life 