Making the One Journey

What have you been putting off doing? Why?

I feel Shame.

At times…

This Journey was calling me to embark on it decades ago.

I heard it.

It moved me.

I know it is The Journey.

“Please answer Promptly, without thought, expressing the first thing that comes to your mind.”

“What would you do if you knew, you would live 5 years?”

…

“Alright, what would you do if you had 1 year to live?”

…

“Ok, what about 1 month to live, what would you do?”

All Three Questions I answered with One and  Only answer.

I surprised myself, little did I know about the answers, consciously, that is”.

I stepped aside and engaged in everything else, convinced that was more important.

Decades went by, until I was Kicked out from the half slumber. Painfully realizing, I haven’t acted on that One answer.

Oh, how the Shadow Self got a nice opportunity to wipe me  within, degrading my feeling of self value, built up through the “side road” experiences.

Shame, shame, shame…

“I have wasted Time!”

For a period, the self punishment felt deserved, even satisfactory.

Then a quiet thought surfaced like a whisper.

“Now is the Time”.

Finally…

First I had to gather all the remains of feelings of worthiness, with understanding and find empathy towards my own choices, holding myself in embrace, as a child”

“All IS well”

So, all “wasted time” wasn’t for nothing. It was necessary roads to walk and experiences to go through, in preparation for This One Journey”

Now is the Time!